A censored cussword, a simile gone wrong, a little introspection, and some fairy dust.

[amanuensis1]

See, as soon as I realized that it was not just me, the "OMG what the f*ck is wrong with my computer/cable modem/browser" panic that was building tapered logarithmically. It's OKAY when it's not just you.

More importantly, it's okay not to be reading livejournal when you realize no one else is posting and posting while you aren't reading your livejournal and your friendslist is bloating and bloating behind your back like some evil pufferfish to whose toxins you are addicted and dear god you better get to that pufferfish before it explodes to a size that will CRASH your browser with the weight of the open tabbed windows. Um, I think I lost my simile at the end there.

And I did non-lj and even non-computer things like going out and shopping. Twice. For things that I could have bought on ebay but didn't, aha! And my fridge is clean and organized too and I actually read a book in bed on Friday night rather than the computer. Far out. Makes you think lj should go offline one day a week, right?

And see, that's what's scary.

Not realizing how badly you're addicted--realizing that you COULD break the addiction pretty readily if you wanted. And how very, very, very, very, very, very, very, VERY badly you don't want.

Fandom is so fragile, you realize at moments like these. It is held together by the crystal-thin bonds of human want, and that is precious beyond imagining.

*blows fairy-dust kisses at you all*

Comments

[meridian-star.livejournal.com]

And I did non-lj and even non-computer things like going out and shopping. Twice. For things that I could have bought on ebay but didn't, aha!

Lol I just went slowly insane.

Don't leave me lj *clings to fandom*

[moonanddogstar.livejournal.com]

Lol I just went slowly insane.
I second that. I was having serious withdrawal symptons. Going cold turkey just isn't good for me!

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

Am still marveling that it was only 24 hours and how lucky we all were.

[dragon-moon.livejournal.com]

I was behind from Thursday so I was almost relieved yesterday that no one else would be posting anything for a bit (didn't have much computer access yesterday anyway). But yes, LJ is quite the addiction. More wonderful than not, at least. :o)

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

Yeah, knowing that I wasn't missing tons of things while everyone else was having an lj party without me was a relief.

[laura-the-auror.livejournal.com]

I also had a peculiar urge to read a book rather than a fic on my laptop. back to normal from now on though I guess.
*glomps you*

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

Yeah, normal is good! (And glomping--*glomps*)

[sor-bet.livejournal.com]

It's OKAY when it's not just you.

It took me a few hours to realize that. I kept thinking "I should check for new updates", then I'd check and it was still down, but it was okay, because it wasn't just me. And I didn't cause it to crash. (It seemed for awhile that every time I posted a New Topic to diagonally.org, it would crash, and I thought it was my fault.....)

So glad to be back!

Um, and instead of reading a book, I just read more fanfic online....oops.

[saridout.livejournal.com]

i kept checking my email without actually going to LJ at first. "what, no LJ comments? waaaaah, nobody loves me!" :P

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

I actually went and looked up Gilmore Girls Rory/Paris slash. Didn't read it, but I had it there, in case I wanted it!

[saridout.livejournal.com]

dear god you better get to that pufferfish

AHahahahhahahaa XD i'm so going to use that line in an icon. *hugs* omg, it was all so horrible. *hugs LJ too*

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

Pufferfish are so...evocative, y'know? *hugs back*

[rane-ab.livejournal.com]

Fandom is so fragile, you realize at moments like these. It is held together by the crystal-thin bonds of human want, and that is precious beyond imagining.

Fragile, yes, but not, for what is stronger than want? LJ has crashed, so now there's a daily_snitch community on GJ, just in case. We just can't live without one another. Well, yes, we certainly can, and it's interesting to look outside of fandom, just as it is to go on holiday in some exotic country. But in the end, fandom is like coming home: something you don't even necessarily miss (because it's so silly after all, right?) until it gets taken away.

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

Better than "fragile": fickle! ^_^ Because human want is the definition of all power, isn't it? Good point!

[mandrill.livejournal.com]

I totally agree with you. LJ should go offline at least once a week from now on.

I did some drawing and then went to a tarot reading party with some friends. We need for LJ to break more often. :=)

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

Just, y'know, little scheduled breaks! That we know will be over in a day or less!

[orange-bastard.livejournal.com]

I should have gotten more drawings done, but I read fanfic instead, which was wonderful. I've been so behind on reading since I started drawing.

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

Gawd, I know what you mean--when I'm on a writing binge I can't stop to read sometimes. It's awful, thinking about what you're missing!

[lycoris.livejournal.com]

*cuddles* Don't stop being addited hun. You might not update much or comment on me much but I like knowing you are around!

*has already broekn her additcion, sees not need to do it again*

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

*squirms happily at the cuddling!*

sprinkles fairy dust

[cellia.livejournal.com]

pufferfish analogy=so true

You got a way with the simile. ;)

It was amazing how much of fandom has become synonymous with LJ. Why, I remember the old days when we had mailing lists and archives and it was all spread out.../geezer voice

Re: sprinkles fairy dust

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

Young WHIPPERSNAPPERS, don't know how good they have it, grumble grumble! ^_~ *hugs*

[loony-moony.livejournal.com]

I think no one could ever NOT love you. Well except for pufferfish lovers. That could be an integral part of the Japanese nation, mind you. Just to loet you know. ;)

Gilmore Girls! Which season? I was thinking about netflixing some of the 2nd season over. (haha could I crash at your place, steal all the food, watch the DVD and read your unfinished pr0n while you're sleeping bwahaha? >:D) <3333333

[loony-moony.livejournal.com]

Also to add, you might just have lost any chance you've ever had with Tom Felton, with that pufferfish metaphore. Bahahaha one less off the list!

[alexandralynch.livejournal.com]

"Fandom is so fragile, you realize at moments like these. It is held together by the crystal-thin bonds of human want, and that is precious beyond imagining."

Just to say, um, yes. This. I lurk a lot, don't post so much (had a stalker last summer) and it's only when I can't get there that I realize how very very important it is in my life to know that I'm not the only person furtively typing fics while my kids are safely occupied elsewhere.

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

Yes, yes, and yes. *hugs you hard*

[adjectivegirl.livejournal.com]

Very nicely put, best post-mortem I've seen because that's basically what I did. When I realized it was a communal thing, I relaxed. It was sort of refreshing to only have to skip back two or three pages too.

Not that I ever need something Major to happen again. :: tragic whimper::

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

No, no Major things! Ever again! ^_^

[sine-que-non767.livejournal.com]

2 things: please be on GJ too! Be a sheep and join the mass rush! ;) If LJ does go belly-up, the fandom wouldn't be the same without you! *begs*

And, what we really need as well is Pornish Pixies on GJ. *muses*

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

Oh, if LJ really does go belly-up, I'll be where everyone else is, promise! Wherever all the cool kids go. If they'll let me play!

[mousapelli.livejournal.com]

Fandom is so fragile, you realize at moments like these.

YES! i was just talking to a RL friend about how i am not ready for book 6, because then there will only be one more. I know that everyone will still be here, but when all is said and done canon-wise things will change and it will not be the same fandom at all. i am not ready!

*hugs*

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

I knoooooow! I don't want it over either--and yet I really really want to know why Sirius had to die/see Sirius come back like we all know he's going to. ^_^

[glockgal.livejournal.com]

Fandom is so fragile, you realize at moments like these. It is held together by the crystal-thin bonds of human want, and that is precious beyond imagining.

*get all teary-eyed* So well put. Where would I be in my life without my fandom? Love and networking and discovery, that's what it's all about! You totally brought that home for me.

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

*hugs hugs hugs hugs* Fandom is SO GOOD. Fandom is people like YOU.

[eskimosatan.livejournal.com]

24 hours later and I'm still cackling over 'evil pufferfish'

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

It's coming to get youuuuuuu...

[antou-san.livejournal.com]

great post =D
I'm not at that level of addiction--NOT YET O_O;

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

Give it tiiiiiime! ^_^

[antou-san.livejournal.com]

I'm anto's sister ^^ Mi name is lusi! I read and loved your fanfics too, and I adore the way you use words. You found the right words to describe that a fandom is so fragile even if sometimes we don't want to admit it.....u write so bloody well *___________*!
So let's hope that you won't gice up your addiction too soon ^__^/

[amanuensis1.livejournal.com]

You dear! Nah, I don't want to get over this one anytime soon. Definitely! *hugs*