I feel sad for you. I was lucky to miss out on most of that cultural conditioning, and very grateful to my mom for moving us into the city and not going back to her family and the Catholic church when she split with my father.
I am SO SO glad I can read porn of every stripe comfortably. :( Good luck on overcoming that, if such is your plan.
It might be too late for me at this stage. I've confronted the conundrum that my ingrained voice says a woman shouldn't have sex until she's married but that I personally don't want to get married, which leaves me saying, "Um, you may want to try to get past that..." Maybe that voice will one day drown out the ingrained voice? I'd like that.
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I am SO SO glad I can read porn of every stripe comfortably. :( Good luck on overcoming that, if such is your plan.
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